My goal in life is to become a Sports Writer. While I write two different Sports blogs, I also decided to start one about something that says a lot about who I am. Personality is something that I do not think about a lot but it is something that people claim changes frequently with me. Of course I realize it here and there but not nearly as much as I should.
Thinking about it now reminds me that there are a countless number of apologies I gave to my friends and family members for flipping out at them over the smallest of things. Sometimes they had it coming but most of the time they did not deserve it at all.
If there is something that is bothering me, I tend to hold it in for a while. For example I could be mad at someone for something they did that angered me deeply but instead of confronting them directly, I lashed out at my friends which is absolutely not fair. AT the time I don't really care because it feels good to let the anger out but lashing out at friends is not the best way to keep them. I wish I could stay calm most of the time and confront the people that anger me instead of pointlessly accusing and degrading my friends/family.
Some have called it being bipolar but I call it having a split personality. I wonder how it is with other people around the world? Are they just as bad? Worse? Better? Can they control themselves in front of their loved ones? Who knows besides God and themselves? I can only hope and try that my future is bright personality wise.
A split personality is what I believe lies within my system. One day I am in a great mood and then when I go to work, I all of a sudden enter this dark stage where my mind and heart do not met eye to eye. Working is not supposed to always be fun but it is always good to attempt and make the best out of it. Letting the small things get to me is one of my biggest issues. If I can get past that, I know I could definetely become a better, calmer, and more fun person to be around. With that I leave you something to think about. Enjoy and until next time fellow personalities.
